Another Journey

Alex laid in bed with a bottle of whiskey in hand. His mind had been running a lot more lately and he had felt the need to simply end it, but with his girls in mind, he had always find an excuse why to never give up. It didn't mean drowning his sorrow in alcohol would be any better but so long as it refrained him front just putting a bullet through his head, it was the best he could do. He got up and threw on his clothes not bothering  to shave as he walked out of the house. What could he do?

Aubrey blinked slowly as she woke up from her slumber. Hesitantly she got out of bed and left her room looking for someone, not wanting to find anyone specific she looked around hoping her mother or father was around. In the living room she didn't find anyone so she made her way to the kitchen to get a glass over water, still feeling slightly tired she moped around with her water.

Alex returned home with a few boxes of cereal and milk and ate what he could of it then laid down with his arm over his face. Since he had finalized the divorce with Jacki he had been a wreck. He glanced over at Aubrey. "I'm sorry Aubrey."

Aubrey turned around and glanced at her father. "It's okay daddy." She explained not understanding what he was apologizing for, she slowly made her way over to him.

Alex walked over and gave her a big hug as tightly as he could. "Do you still love daddy?" He knew she didn't understand but sometimes he felt as if he made her life extremely difficult. As Aj began to cry from his crib he walked over and picked up the two month old to feed him.

Maddy watched him walk over to her brother. "Yes i do." She said with a smile and took a drink of her water and placed it on the table when she was finished.

Alex gently passed Aj into his daughters arms and gave her the bottle. "Can you feed him for me?" He said guiding her to sit on the couch with the baby. He gazed at his two kids then over at a family photo distantly then walked out to go throw his temper away from them.

Aubrey nodded then took aj over to the couch and began to feed him. As her father left she studied her baby brother thinking babies were weird.

Alex fell to the ground after punching out a tree and continued to sob. He couldn't believe he had lost almost everything.

Aj moved his arms and legs a bit as his sister held him and gave a small grunt.

Maddys eyes widen slightly as he made grunting noises. "You're weird aj." She explained smiling at him.

Aj whimpered as he drank from the bottle and shut his eyes.

Aubrey watched him oddly then looked for around for her father not knowing what to do now.

Alex sat outside on the dirt with his head hanging low. If only he had a friend, anybody to accompany him. He bit his lip and looked down before getting up and walking back into the house to pick up Aj and hold him in close.

Aubrey stood next to her father and clenched onto her fathers shirt. She new he was in pain and saw it in his face. "I promise daddy i will always be here." She nodded.

"Thanks Aubrey." Alex said and hugged her again as he sat on the couch. "Maybe we can go out today."

Aubrey became a little excited. "Like where?" She asked as she flopped down next to him on the couch.

"Wherever you want to go Aubrey." Alex responded and cradled his son. "I'm up for anything."

Aubrey thought for a couple seconds on what s he would like to do. "What about going to get ice cream!" she said cheerfully.

"Sounds fun. What else?" Alex suggested as he got Aj ready. At least spending time with his kids would distract him from anything.

Aubrey quickly looked up at him. "We can go to the park." She nodded then ran to her room to get dressed.

Alex waited for her to get dressed then set up Aj in the car.

Aubrey quickly ran out and got into the car and slid on her seat belt humming a song. "Do you like Ice Cream daddy?" She asked.

"My mommy and daddy used to take Aunty Angel, and Uncle Jay for ice cream all the time." Alex told her.

Aubrey smiled. She turned her head to look out the window and watch the trees, houses and other cars go by. "I like Ice Cream. Do you think baby aj likes Ice Cream?" She asked.

"Maybe in a year or two he will like ice cream." Alex grinned and stopped at the ice cream parlor.